Archive for January, 2010

January 27, 2010

A Grief Observed

This afternoon I learned that my precious Auntie passed away. She was 89. I feel like I should say something like, this is a tragedy and we are devastated, etc etc. But, all I can think is how blessed I am to have known this amazing woman. How much she influenced my life, my thoughts, my heart, and my mind. And I will continue to carry that with me, I’m so thankful for that. Am I torn up over this? Yes. My heart is broken in a way. And yet, it rejoices. It’s so nice to know that she’s living it up with Jesus right now. She’s up there partying with my grandmother and her late husband. The idea that she left us to go Home is the most comforting thought in the world. So tonight, I celebrate her life, and the time I got to spend with her. And I count myself beyond lucky to have known her and be loved by her. To be thought as something special in her mind.

Goodbye for now, Auntie. I love you forever.

xo – S

“It is hard to have patience with people who say ‘There is no death’ or ‘Death doesn’t matter.’ There is death. And whatever is matters. And whatever happens has consequences, and it and they are irrevocable and irreversible. You might as well say that birth doesn’t matter.”
– C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed

Has this world been so kind to you that you should leave with regret? There are better things ahead than any we leave behind.
-C.S. Lewis

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January 27, 2010

Granny Squares

So, I’m going to try and start a granny square. I’m no pro as crochet buttttttt I’m pretty good at knitting. We’ll see how it goes. I’ll put some pictures up… we can giggle together at the progress.

This is the tutorial I’ll be using – if you are thinking of trying such a project you can use it too!
Happy Wednesday!

xo – shan

January 25, 2010

Trust your journey

The interim boss at work, who I completely adore, gave me a gift today. It’s a coffee mug that says “Trust Your Journey”. We talked about how about a year ago we both would have scoffed at that phrase but how events in our lives have shaped us to believe in the power of those words.  Not to mention our shared love of God, kids, and coffee.  Trust is something I struggle with at times. I really struggle with it in my relationship with God. I love this mug simply because it reminds me to trust the journey He has laid out for me. Trust Him. Trust His unfailing love and His faithfulness. Thanks, Nicole. You inspire me and this gift will not only remind me of the things previously listed, but also of you.  Of what you bring into my life simply by being a presence. Even when you’re in Africa in that amazing rain jacket ;-) You mean a lot to me friend, and this gift really touched me. Thanks for sharing your stories, patience, and love with me.

xo – shan

January 24, 2010

So, when you reduce the AE on your camera…

This is what you get –

Gorgeous, eh?

And I totally want to do this to my bedroom…

happy weekend. xo – S

January 21, 2010

So, are you going to use that moist towelette?

Tonight my mom and I decided to have a girls dinner. We went to our favorite seafood place in town, Maggie’s Galley. They have the best crab legs in the world. Well… at least in the mountains.

There has been quite a lot going on with my family (internal and external forces alike) recently and we’re all struggling in one way or another. My mom and I are similar in the way that we get bogged down and we tend to stay in our own bubbles. We haven’t spent much time together recently and tonight we were able to reconnect.

Tonight we talked. We laughed. We cried. We told stories, we delved deep, we revealed secrets, we quoted movies, we mocked situations, we made light of heavy things, we blew off steam. We came back together.

Mom and I have a great relationship, she’s my best friend. Despite everything I go through or that she goes through at the end of the day we are always there for each other. I’ve had several people in my life comment on how different and, in their words, strange my relationship with mom is. I just have to smile to myself and secretly disagree with them.

It’s amazing what a plate of crab legs and the resulting prune-y (spell?) fingers can do for two girls.

xo, mom ♥ shannon

January 20, 2010

Minnie

I love Minnie Mouse – she’s my favorite. Ever.

It used to be Tinkerbell; then I watched Peter Pan again and decided her attitude was terrible and that Minnie was much more deserving of the “favorite” status in my life.

As you know, or I hope you know by now, I teach pre-school to a group of Kindergarten bound 4 & 5 year olds.  One of my sweet girls (we’ll refer to her as ‘K’) knows that I love Minnie. She came in today and gave me a huge hug and a kiss and announced that she had a surprise for me. She pulled out a page of stickers, most of which were gone, that was apprised of Disney characters.  K pulled off the Minnie sticker for me and slaps it on my shirt and told me in a whisper that she “sabed it just for you, Miss Shannon- because it’s your faborite and you lobe it”.

That made my heart smile and I even wore it to a super important meeting today hehe!

Here we are in our glory – Minnie is kind of hiding – but that’s okay, we knew she was there. And I’m sorry but, how precious is that little girl? I mean, yeah. I love it!

xo – S

January 19, 2010

The Cake

Tonight my mom and I decided to make The Cake. Okay, it’s not called ‘The Cake’ it’s actually called the Hot Chocolate Cake but, it’s so much better than the original title. This cake is like the most delectable, mouth-watering, divine taste of heaven you’ve ever tasted. No really, it is.

Seriously.

That and the fact that I went running tonight and am about to undo everything that I did by eating this cake is the beautiful for today. I mean, I’m just sayin’.

Did I mention that we’re watching the Biggest Loser while we eat the cake? Yeah. We are.

I make this crazy awesome frowny face that throws off a lot of people with just how frowny it is. The other day at Panacea we were trying to figure out who the heck I inherited this great skill from.

me ^

dad^

mom ^

We did a lot of laughing but, we didn’t come to a conclusion.  I think Dad’s is my favorite, it’s something about the beard, haha!

We’ll say the smile is from both though. Maybe I’m the freak of the family with the random frowny face. I’ll take it!

January 16, 2010

Mhmm

enough said.

xo. S

January 15, 2010

Alright.

I took a break yesterday for a personal break down. A few things weighing down on me came crashing down and it was a very emotional afternoon/evening.

It’s hard to stop and think about what could be good when you’re in a moment like that. For me, it was my friends and my Father. When I’m down like that I have to let God carry me and hold me up so I don’t sink entirely, which He did fabulously. I love that we have a God that rises to the occasion. I’m still hurting and processing and trying to make sense of a lot of it, but the beautiful about that is I can look up and give it to Him for a while -because I’m one of those kids, you know the ones that give it up for a while and then snatch it back to worry over…again. Making God roll his eyes at us. Yeah. One of those kids.

Have a good day friends.

xo. shannon

January 13, 2010

Mumford and Sons

My friend, Joel gave me a cd on Saturday night at church called Mumford and Sons. I looked at the name and thought …mmm I don’t know about this…

I was an idiot for thinking that.

I’m Irish/British (among other things) but, I love anything that sounds Irish or folky. Like Gaelic Storm, I mean those guys are amazing. Well, Mumford and Sons is in roughly the same genre. They’re more folky, but they have a banjo and a trumpet…I’m just sayin’. Most of their songs are about love and they reference God a couple of times which I think is really neat.

There is one song called White Blank Page that I absolutely am in love with. The opening lines are:
Can you lie next to her and give her your heart, your heart as well as your body?
And can you lie next to her and confess your love, your love as well as your folly?
And can you kneel before the King and say ‘I’m clean’, ‘I’m clean’?

Once I heard the first line I was hooked. I think it impacted me the way it did because we don’t think of that these days. Can you lie next to her and give her your heart as well as your body? In a society where it’s mostly about drinking and sex and having a good time we lose perspective of how love should be. It’s not about a one night stand or “playing” someone. It’s about being able to surrender yourself and give, in this case her but him also, your heart. As well as your body. Not to mention how hard is it to confess your folly? It’s usually much easier to say, “Hey I love you”. Do we ever really want to add, “Oh and here are a few things I’m not so proud of…”?

I also like how they bring in, can you kneel before the King and say ‘I’m clean’? To be fair, no. No one can. But can we confess our follies and then say “I’m clean”? I think so, yes. How often that thought escapes us. How often we become bogged down with the drudgery of life and trudge along.

The beautiful today is this song. What thoughts it invokes, what chains it encourages me us to break, and the love it reminds me us of.  I encourage you to listen to the song and think about it.